Princess Training

I know this may sound strange at first, but it led to a big breakthrough in my life. Recently I was talking with a close friend of mine about clothing styles and the amount of money we are used to spending on clothes. My friend is used to shopping at places like Nordstroms and Macys and said that at Norstroms they treat you like royalty, you walk in and you become the most important person in the store, they help you decide what looks good and what doesn't and what colors work for you and so on. I'm not used to that, I'm used to Ross and Value Village, I grew up on hand me downs and clothes that were given to me. I don't think I would even know how to shop in a store like that, it would probably take a while for me to talk myself into getting the nerve to even walk into the store.
So as I was thinking and praying about this, I heard the words "Just because you can't afford it doesn't mean you don't deserve it." And its totally true. I didn't realize it at first, but God told me that I was believing the lie that I don't deserve the nice new clothes, or the people caring about whether or not what I walk out the store with will actually look good on me. But I am a daughter of the King. I am a princess and its time I started acting like it. I don't mean that I am going to start bossing people around or acting better than others, but that I am going to start walking in the revelation and knowledge that my dad created the world and owns everything in it and everything in the Heavens and since I am His daughter, I have access to all of it. Did I mention how often He tells me I'm beautiful? How there's nothing I can say or think of that can exaggerate the love He feels for me? I'm not just His daughter, I'm His favored daughter, I am the one He spent so much time over perfecting my beauty, to tell myself I don't deserve anything over twenty dollars would be an insult to Him! I am the daughter of a King who values me!
It turns out however, that there are other reasons why I still shop at thrift stores instead of saving up for nicer newer things. When I was in junior high I was anorexic for about three months. I'm sure I don't need to describe what happens when someone has this disorder, you've all heard of the side effects. Even though it was over in a few months, God told me that the mindset behind it was still there and I needed to get rid of it. So what happened was whenever I went shopping, I went with the idea that I was going to be losing some more weight and shouldn't get something expensive because it probably wouldn't fit in little while anyways and why spend a lot of money on something that you won't be able to wear very long? Anorexia is also the reason I've never really been able to enjoy the more feminine style of clothing because I thought I was overweight and I wasn't going to flaunt it, so I covered it up with baggie clothes, sweatshirts, big jeans, and so on.
I am still learning what it means to be free of this, and how to walk and live in that freedom. Its foreign to me still. I have to relearn how to think about and treat myself, but since that place in my heart is now free, God can come in and fill it. I have more freedom to worship Him now than I did before and thats good news! Our God is big and wants us to have freedom more than we want freedom for ourselves!